Reflections From The Bell Curve
About Me

- Pat Barton
- My most recent single release - "My True North" - is now available on Bandcamp. Open my profile and click on "audio clip".
Sunday, March 23, 2025
Your Gold Standard
Thursday, March 20, 2025
Yesterday
Monday, March 17, 2025
A Honduran Bookonnection
Friday, March 14, 2025
Milestones Since the Maiden Voyage
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
Who Doesn't Want This?
"I just want you to know who I am."
I wonder how many times I've heard - but not listened closely to - Iris, a song that includes the simple but profound lyric above. Apparently, it's one of the most well-known tunes by the Goo Goo Dolls and was featured in City of Angels, a Nicholas Cage film from 1998.
I'm not sure what made me pay close attention to Iris the last time it played on my car radio several weeks ago. But whatever the reason, I'm glad I was focused for that moment. As lead singer/composer John Rzeznik plaintively repeated that lyric several times during the song's coda, I was overcome enough that I pulled off the road. When did this last happen to you? Was it a song you know well? What lyric from that tune that you'd heard many times before knocked you down that time? Or was the lyric that floored you from a song you'd paid only passing attention to, as I had with Iris? Or was it words from a tune you've never heard before that stopped you cold?
Don't most of us have a deep need to be known by others in a meaningful and intimate way? Some people are satisfied if one person knows them well in this fashion. Others need more. Listen to Iris - especially the coda - and try to remain unmoved by Rzeznik's delivery of this universal human cry.
Saturday, March 8, 2025
A Never-Ending Search
Some months back, for the first time, I heard pianist McCoy Turner's take on Speak Low, a Kurt Weill standard many jazz musicians play. Listening carefully to Tyner's amazing interpretation, I began analyzing my tepid version of this tune, one I've played steadily for several years. The journal entry I wrote not long after finishing my analysis oozed self-pity. Not my best moment.
Fast forward to a recent conversation with an ex-guitar teacher. When I shared how discouraging it can sometimes be to listen to someone with the speed and superhuman technique of Tyner or guitarist Joe Pass, he reminded me of the days when Miles Davis shared a stage with Charlie "Bird" Parker. What if Miles - my old friend asked me - had allowed himself to be discouraged by Bird's prodigious gifts? Think - he coached me - of what the world would have missed if Miles hadn't used what he learned playing alongside Bird as a path toward finding his own musical voice.
I've been searching for my voice on the guitar most of my adult life. And I'm grateful for those fleeting moments when it feels like I'm getting close, especially if I'm improvising at the time. But I decided long ago that it's unwise abbreviating and calling myself a jazz guitarist. I'm a guitarist who has studied and enjoys jazz, likes to improvise, and favors tunes from the Great American Songbook and jazz standards. It's a much longer explanation but a far more accurate one. Joe Pass, Wes Montgomery, and Pat Metheny are jazz guitarists. And so is that ex-teacher of mine who reminded me recently to keep searching for my voice and remember that speed is just one element, and sometimes not the most important one.
Wednesday, March 5, 2025
Nomophobia or Rudeness?
This cranky and contrary old fart is finding it harder all the time to differentiate between nomophobia and garden variety rudeness. And yes I realize that my decision to make minimal use of a cell phone puts me in a rapidly shrinking and marginalized minority.
That said, I'd like to ask all of you - enamored of or tethered to your cell phone or not - what might have been your reaction had you experienced what I did in my local public library this a.m.? Allow me a brief but wholly accurate set-up.
Between the lobby of the library and the quiet study area where I placed myself there are no fewer than thirteen signs (counted after the fact) that read "Please restrict cell phone use to the lobby area". This includes one sign on each of the three tables in the study area and one on the wall directly above each. The library lobby is a distance of twenty paces away from those tables (also counted after the fact).
I'm guessing you can predict what happened moments after I sat down. What might surprise you is how the librarian blithely responded after my sheepish request that she intervene with the patron who began a cell phone conversation. "Oh, don't worry about it. This happens every day."
What possible rationale could anyone offer under these circumstances for disturbing others? Didn't see all thirteen signs? Didn't want to walk the twenty paces? What? My frequent use of the library is partially motivated by a wish to avoid the ubiquitous assault of the 24/7 news cycle - abetted by a TV in nearly public space - and the nearly inescapable presence of cell phones, both in the public and private spheres.
Nomophobia or rudeness?
Sunday, March 2, 2025
A Snob Is Born
When it comes to movies, I am close to being indiscriminate. I'll watch almost anything and put off doing urgent things needing attention when I spot something I haven't seen. In the age of streaming, it's become effortless to indulge myself; my geek cup has runneth over.
It's also been easy sliding into less discernment because, putting aside the "I could be doing something more productive" internal conversation, being a movie geek is a largely benign habit. But I recently stumbled across a downside to my geekdom. And the downside comes wrapped in a little story.The downside: Being indiscriminate has taken away some of my passion. Because I've seen so many, some of the conventions of genre movies (Westerns, romantic comedies, sports films, musicals, etc.) are no longer as fresh for me. I find myself a tad cynical when able to predict how these types of films will turn out. The story: I've begun to give offbeat, unusual, or non-genre films more credit than they sometimes deserve. Yes, this film geek could be morphing into a snob. This type of thing ever happen to you? If not with movies, how about with literature? Music?